Day 22 – How have you changed in the past 2 years?
My circumstances have changed a lot in two years but I haven’t really, too stuck in my ways.
I have a very strong personality and it has been this way for a long time so it would need to be a really big, life-changing, momentous two years to really change me and for some people the last two years could have been that but not for me, not really.
I would like to think that I learned from my mistakes but it is difficult to see where I could have done, without fundamentally changing me into somebody I didn’t like or want to be.
I don’t want to be one of those men that doesn’t trust women just because of how I was treated by one woman I loved and trusted in the past; I don’t want to be one of those people who doesn’t give their role and responsibilities at work a 100% commitment just because the local authority that funded my company where so narrow-minded that (I can’t decide which suits best) they cut open their golden goose to find nothing inside – they cut off their nose to spite their face (you pick); I don’t want to be one of those people who think material objects are more important than the people in your life just because I lost half of my possessions to an ex-partner; I don’t want to be one of those people who wallow in self-pity just because they have had a string of bad luck (I have to be honest here, I have had a terrible two years when it comes to bad luck but there have been some good luck moments too, however for the rest of my life the good luck has pretty much outweighed the bad (although I truly believe in the saying – the harder I work the luckier I am), so I have no reason really to be complaining).
There are a few things that If I could go back in time I would have done differently and those mistakes have been learned but they occurred twenty years ago rather than two but the ramifications of those tiny decisions two decades later were only felt in the last two years. Deep down inside though, I know that if I relived those moments again I would make the same choices because they were the right ones to make at the time and I am who I am and there’s pretty much nothing I can do about that, which is something I have come to know, accept and possibly love about myself for a lot longer than the last two years.